Without direction
QUESTION: Masters I truly need guidance from the Divine. After the passing on of my father and dearest cousin, I’ve been feeling a loss of direction and purpose in life. I think I’ve wasted my money in the past attending all those spiritual courses, instead of healing I feel more hurt. Is that my karma from the past that I need to go through? What’s my direction in life now, am I supposed to live my life as it is now since I don’t have another 50 years. I should go back to Buddhist practice do more chanting to clear my karma so that I can go to heaven. ~Faye, Singapore
ANSWER: “Karma” is an excuse for blaming all your problems on an invisible and unreachable source. What you are dealing with are the life lessons you chose before coming to Earth. You elected to experience abandonment, betrayal, a lack of love, and issues concerning self-worth and self-confidence. You have shied away from taking responsibility for your journey and have looked to others for direction.
You deferred to your father and cousin while making major decisions in your life and now have no one to take their place. Going to all the spiritual classes could only show you the way others have handled their problems. Nothing was discussed on dealing with your own difficulties. You feel more confused because no one shared your set of lessons.
The remaining lessons that are still affecting you come to you as fears and doubts. Instead of facing them, you back away and talk of them as karma that some say can be cleared through chanting. In fact, what you need is to face them down and find out what is keeping the fear in front of you. These are your lessons.
When you sense fear, ask yourself why it is there. Your unconscious will give you an indication of its origin. Go to the beginning and see what you must do to rewrite your memory of the cause. You can then remove it as a hindrance to your future.
When your soul leaves the body, regardless of what it has done or completed it returns to the unconditional love of Source, which many call heaven. You don’t have to do anything special to return; it is Home – where you belong.
Resolving your remaining lessons can be done in a short period of time if you work at it; you don’t need fifty years. But you also don’t have to do anything if you don’t desire. You will still find yourself in unconditional love when you return Home.