Self-fulfilling prophesies
QUESTION: Masters since I was a child, I used to think and feel that my mother doesn’t love me or even like me. The most negative side of this is that we spent the whole life fighting each other. Another bad thing of this is that I introjected a negative feeling that I am not worthy and I don’t deserve love, caring and loyalty from anyone, attracting much suffering into my life. Today, I do feel my mother hates me and I really gave up of our relationship. What actually is happening in a spiritual level? ~Clara, Brazil
ANSWER: You are describing the major life lessons you chose to experience in this lifetime. You are examining all aspects of love and hate between two humans. You made it more difficult for yourself since you also decided to deal with a sense of self-loathing and lack of self-worth and confidence.
In order to work through the love/hate issues, you need to first resolve your personality traits. You are accepting the thinking of others when they have said to you that you are worthless and will never amount to anything. You are a piece of Source energy and cannot move beyond where you are right now unless, and until, you truly accept your own powers and abilities as a piece of Source.
The essence of your soul is all-powerful, all-knowing, all-magnificent, and all-creative. Nowhere in your inner being is there a lack of anything. You deserve everything that will allow you to experience the chosen lessons of your life – if you allow yourself to accept that as a fact.
Whenever you start to think that you are not worthy, stop and ask yourself why you think that. Your unconscious will bring to light the origin of such thoughts. You will then be able to face them and see that they do not apply to the person you are today. If you believe they apply to you, then you create a world where you cannot escape them.
Once you have gotten to the point of knowing you can deal with anything that comes your way, you will then be able to understand the positive/negative energy that creates the love/hate dichotomy. Souls possess the freedom of choice to determine how they deal with their lessons. Humans experience things in society and deal with them using ego judgment.
The spiritual approach is to step away from the negative energy needed to judge actions and just observe through the use of a positive energy love filter. You will be able to see that your hatred of your mother is merely in response to her actions toward you. You may either mirror her actions or choose to love the fact that she is a soul who has chosen negative lessons and honor her right to do so even while disliking her choice.