Indecisive and programmed
QUESTION: Masters I have been through a two-year period of many changes. I’ve just turned 30 and it’s like I was just born. I am happy with the awakening that I have lived, but professionally my path is still not clear. I have been unemployed for some months and have difficulty identifying with something I want and that makes sense to me. I no longer identify with my training area and it seems that the doors close for me. My family has a history of financial hardship, my parents have never been able to continue their plans, despite the potential. Am I in a karmic difficulty? Is there a cycle I need to break? Lately I have wanted to start a business of my own and I wonder if this can be a way for me. Ana, Brazil
ANSWER: You have come into full recognition of the fact that you have freedom of choice in all things in this life. What you are dealing with are all of the beliefs with which you have grown up. Your parents’ difficulties come from the fact that they can’t focus on just one thing and carry through with it. They are dreamers and don’t accept that since they are in physical bodies they have to give some consideration to the physical needs of their bodies and shape their lives to be able to provide for those needs.
You have picked up on this trait and expect that you can just follow your fantasy of a good life without the practicalities of providing for yourself in the usual societal fashion. There is nothing wrong with throwing away all of your training and moving to another field – that is, if you can make enough money to provide for yourself with something else.
You find doors closed right now because you are sending mixed signals out to the universe that you have no idea what you want to do. How can you make a connection with something you have not even considered yet? You envision a business of your own, but what is it? Do you have enough expertise that others will come to you? Dreams are nice but they don’t feed you.
Patience is your most intense life lesson. You don’t give yourself time working with one idea before you flip elsewhere. Try settling into a productive employment, even in your old field, in order to take care of your needs, and then begin to develop something that appeals to you more. If you decide you really like the new job, transition into it full time.
To be happy in your career you must resonate with what you are doing. You can “test drive” something new to see if it is for you without having to commit yourself one hundred percent to the switch: simply stay where you are as you investigate all the possibilities in a different situation. Stop thinking about what “makes sense to you” and start feeling for that with which you identify.