Balancing human existence
QUESTION: Masters, I love reading your teachings, they do resonate with me. You often tell people that they can do whatever they want in this life, it is their choice. My problem – I do not know what I want. I currently do not have a “calling”… I had those before, and I followed them, and got very good at these skills, but I feel stuck now, and just follow routine and procrastinate when I have free time…How do I figure out what I really want? Things I love – international travel, taking pictures, shopping, eating out, dressing up – do not pay bills or can be considered “work”, I really love being a tourist, free from any work or obligations…Does it make me a horrible person? ~Irina, USA
ANSWER: You may do whatever they want in your journey, but, as you have pointed out, if you don’t know what the options are, you really have no choices. A calling, which you seek, is a very individualized event requiring action and active participation. This is something that pulls you through life. You must first be totally open to all possibilities before you will hear or feel this invitation to join in.
As you have seen from your own experience, a person may have a number of callings. It is not uncommon to follow one, have it no longer hold its appeal, and then move on to something else. When you have had so many opportunities to discover yourself, it becomes harder to get excited by anything new.
A soul has no requirements for various activities during a human experience, and what you do is completely up to you – including choosing to do nothing! Spiritually, nothing is right or wrong. There are no judgments, so whatever your choice, no one declares you horrible or magnificent.
You are aware of the things that are pulling at you at the moment but just haven’t figured out a way to make them work for you. Many companies hire people to do shopping, eatery evaluation, and recording the world through pictures, and it can be quite lucrative if you become good at it by their standards. When it comes to travel, any company that offers trips to the public needs those who go along and trouble-shoot for clients. Cruise ships have huge staffs, sometimes one for every two passengers, to make the journey enjoyable. Meditate on the possibilities. But you can still do nothing if that resonates with you, and no one will penalize you for it.