Self-sabotaging
QUESTION: Masters, I had a call with an intuitive coach a month ago because I wanted advice on overcoming my blockages in attracting money and keeping money. It’s been a BIG struggle for me for as long as I can remember. She mentioned that most of my money struggle comes from feeling and believing that I’m not deserving of it. I wake up every morning and meditate to see what comes up and then I work on deleting beliefs in this area that are not serving me. It feels like it’s never ending. At the end of my call the coach said I had deleted about 35% of those negative beliefs up to that point in this money area around being deserving. What can I do to nip this lesson in the butt and remove all that is left? ~Maria, USA
ANSWER: Your morning routine is letting you see only the things that so far have been triggered by your everyday life. This is dealing only with current situations. What you have not dug down to is the reasons that you have for the belief of being undeserving. It is not just centered on finances but spreads out into all aspects of your life.
Together, this problem and issues of not being good enough, not being able to love yourself, and low self-esteem are sabotaging your projection to the world. The energy, or identity, that you project gets returned to you from all beings who sense how you see yourself. This is all taking place right now on an unconscious level, but it is very powerful.
To nip this in the bud, you need to revisit those times in your life when you accepted these character deficiencies as controlling. This can be accomplished through hypnosis, with a therapist or by yourself, through deep meditation, and/or through conversations with your guides and higher self. You could also start the process by asking for dreams reliving the times when you defined the beliefs you have today.
Once you become aware of the causes, or roots, of your identification of “lacking” type behaviors, you can analyze how you feel about those events now and begin to release the power they hold over you. Every time you sense a fear or a doubt about something in your life, this is an outward sign of beliefs beneath the surface. Don’t let them remain; follow them “home,” root them out, then decide if they are serving or controlling unconscious thoughts. If they are not serving your desired progress, thank them for being a part of your past, but send them on their way.