Living in fear
QUESTION: Masters I live with a man who shows irritation and always fights with me. We have a child of nearly eight years who also no longer can stand to live with him. My energy is low in his presence and he’s making me depressed. I lost vanity and dignity, but I cannot end the relationship because I’m afraid of him. He is an aggressive and crazy person who pretends to be spiritualized and sensitive. In fact he reads many books and know things in theory, but does not apply the love in our home. Why did I choose this life lesson? Is there any prayer or visualizing for things to happen more easily? Will I have to live with it forever? ~Thaiz, Brasil
ANSWER: You chose this life lesson so that you might examine the issues and ask the questions you are grappling with right now. You see that there is more than one way to look at any situation and that you do have freedom to choose what you put up with. You are trying to identify what strengths you have within you and whether you have the self-confidence to make the decision that will change your life and the life of your child.
You wanted to experience being controlled by someone and to see if you would figure out that remaining in this scenario or leaving it is completely in your control. You fear him, but there are organizations out there that will help you to separate from him and to protect your child, whose personality is starting to change under this stress.
You think you are alone in this dilemma, but it is an all too frequent occurrence. You just have to decide to speak up and do something – that, too, is part of a lesson. You are a piece of Source with all the powers and abilities that arise from that origin. To use your innate abilities, all you have to do is accept that they are there and that you can use them to determine your future.
Someone who thinks they are spiritual but acts as an energy vampire and lives a life of negativity is anything but spiritual. Don’t listen to the stories you are being fed. Depend upon your inner feelings for the direction you need to follow.
You can visualize and manifest a different life for yourself if you bring the courage that is within you to the outside. Have faith in yourself and what you see as your next step. You can change, but only if you are willing to make the decision yourself.