Self-analysis
QUESTION: Masters what is this fear that I’m stuck in and can’t face? I am learning to trust and I know that gratitude is the answer – but there is something that prevents me, that says that I’m not worthy or capable. Deep feeling of being a victim – or is it something else? I’m tired and scared of letting go. Controlling is the lesson but this fear just continues. What is the role of my mother and father? ~Anita, Finland
ANSWER: In the position you occupy at this time, you need to ask yourself: whom are you learning to trust, and to whom are you feeling gratitude? You are a soul having a human experience. As a soul, you are a piece of Source energy and have the same powers and abilities as Source. You have total freedom of choice to decide what your life will be like. If you need to trust anyone, it should be yourself and that part of your soul which is always there giving you support. Any gratitude should be for the fantastic job you allow yourself to do in order to learn while on Earth.
You haven’t dealt with your chosen lessons of lack of self-worth and self–confidence. You constantly allow yourself to think you cannot accomplish what is in front of you. What you fear letting go of is all the beliefs by which you have been restricted. Never be afraid to let go of non-serving beliefs. You have the freedom to choose how your life will be directed. The sense of being a victim comes from feeling you have no choices – in fact, you just haven’t exercised them yet.
Your parents are around to set up the part of your belief system that makes you feel so inferior. They are ultra-strong and controlling people, and that makes you believe you can never be free of their reach or match them in confidence. You don’t understand being controlled or manipulated. You allow a lot of people in your life to dictate to you for fear of the results if you decide for yourself rather than letting them call the shots.
When you can accept that you have all the powers and abilities of Source, and then believe and turn that belief into a knowing, you will be able to take responsibility for all aspects of your life. Increase that trust in yourself, that you are in charge. Be grateful that you can make decisions that comply with your wishes. Don’t do anything unless it feels totally right for you. Love yourself and this journey you are on.