Seeing the world through blinders
QUESTION: Masters my father passed away when I was 10yrs on 22 Sep 1984. After 30yrs, my only sibling passed away on 24 Sep 2014. I miss my brother every day and am in such grief. I feel guilty for not being there and helping my brother. He was in a bad marriage and I believe his wife was responsible for his death. She was after his inheritance and when she got his money, she left even before his 1st anniversary. Although I have a loving husband and mother with me, I feel alone, sad and lost. I have attempted IVF multiple times for a child and haven’t been successful yet. Please help me make sense of what is happening. Will I ever be happy again? Will I ever find my brother’s soul? Will my family be together ever again in this life or next? ~Rajni, Australia
ANSWER: You are very confused concerning your life. This is your life, not that of any other member of your family. Your brother made his own decisions, and your greater presence in his life would not have changed or affected the outcome. It is not so much that you miss him as that you will not allow yourself to forget that you think you should have been more active in his life. Forget it. Forgive yourself for what you think you should have done. You couldn’t do anything.
Accept that your life is what you are living right now, not the past you yearn for. You have a very loving husband and mother and are not being respectful to them in spending so much time thinking that your departed relatives would provide more than the living are sharing with you now.
You feel alone and sad because you choose to. You do not believe you are worthy of the love you receive from your family. You are now spending a lot of your energy convinced that if you have a child, you will find the love you crave. One of the reasons the IVF has been unsuccessful is your putting so much faith in the child as your savior. All would look different to you if you could learn to love yourself. Try to find the unconditional love within your soul and embrace it.
All souls will be joined when you are at Home. You will have to decide individually whether each soul wishes to share another life with the others.