Life lessons have many forms
QUESTION: Masters, why would a soul choose to experience ‘nothingness’? I have barely attracted relationships, experience very little sexual attraction, have no contact with family, and seem unable to create deep friendships. When going in deeper, there is a feeling of peace at shutting out the world, but I also feel a sadness and frustration at being unable to ‘create’ anything in life. My inner being seems to find people engulfing, and seems to want me living in this ‘desert’. Have you any clarity on what can be learnt in this deeply isolating life lesson? ~Craig, Australia
ANSWER: “Nothingness” would be existence within a sterile environment with no outside contact and without even the awareness of anything but yourself. You chose to enter this life with the desire to learn as much about human interactions as you could. A lot of these lessons involve observing others and how they deal with another person. If you have too much emotional involvement in the scenario, you will not be able to evaluate the exchanges without having personal feelings for the event, which would influence your determinations.
That deep peace you feel when shutting out the world is your soul’s essence of unconditional love. The sadness and frustration is a conflict between what feels good to you and your expectations of what should be occurring in your life according to society’s input. You have to be very clear about the desire of what you want to create within your world.
Personal interaction with others, while you are studying interpersonal relations, will create even more conflict and the sensation of being overwhelmed. You do have freedom of choice to stop your current life lessons and/or to rewrite what you want to learn. In order to do this you must look at the belief systems with which you are controlling your everyday actions.
Right now you have a section of fear-based regulations that separate you from people for one reason or another. You fear what they say, how they think about you, whether you are good enough for them to love you, and whether the decisions you make are valid. If you wish to change your environment you have to start here.
If you want to continue with your lesson, but not have the sadness and frustration, establish a place inside you where you are totally in charge – a place where the love from your soul, which is connected to the entire universe, is more than sufficient to give you the happiness to continue your observations.