Creating your own reality
QUESTION: Masters, I was awoken being gently kissed along my left arm during Feb but I was alone. It felt very graceful, and it had an essence of NR, a man I loved unconditionally. NR ejected me out of his life out of the blue, and the phone call he did this in, he was citing he did not trust me and that I was being manipulative. I backed away, traumatized, and I am healing via my spiritual growth and energy healing. What was it? ~LH, England
ANSWER: You have a very vivid imagination and idea of how you want your life to be. You practice creating that reality consciously during the day and unconsciously continue working at night. You are still clinging to your thoughts and memories of NR. Your dream was acting out your desire.
You were trying to manipulate the relationship when you were together to create the things that you desired. You went so far as to agree that you would relent with some of your demands to make him feel more comfortable. You would start for a brief period, and then you amped up the intensity again to make your dreams come true.
You need to step back from the situation and take a look at what you were doing. Your lessons in this lifetime are all about control and this is just a tiny part of that lesson. You state that you loved him unconditionally, yet you made certain demands of him, which negated giving him total freedom of choice, which is the definition of unconditional love.
When you have expectations, whether of a situation or a person’s behavior, you are trying to control that person and the outcome. To learn your lesson you must understand that you can never get people to do what you want unless they agree to do it. To let go of your controlling personality, start to do things without programming the conclusion. Go with the flow of the universe—just let it roll.