What doesn’t seem possible
QUESTION: Masters, I am reasonably successful and contented in life. I think my life lesson is to lead people and help complete difficult tasks. However, it is not something I think I am equipped to do. By nature, I am very gentle and rather approval-seeking and non-dominating. Physically, I am small and non-imposing. Though I am reasonably good at leading, subconsciously, I have a constant feeling of inadequacy when compared to others who seem to be better equipped, both mentally and physically. Hence I am confused whether I am correct in interpreting my life lesson. ~Ajit, India
ANSWER: You continue to say “I think” throughout your question. Thinking is the process of the brain. The brain is loaded with all the information that has been stored there by hearing or reading what the world around you thinks you should do. You have taken all these thoughts and then worked backwards to see if you consider that the reasoning has produced a viable situation for you. Go the next step in your journey: consider how you feel—which takes into consideration the reason you are incarnate, what you wanted to do, and what you have been preparing for in this life.
You have also adopted the thinking of society that in order to be a leader you must be of large stature and domineering, aggressive, and pushy. You are using judgment when you compare yourself to others. Judgment comes from the ego mind of the everyday world, where people want to know how much better or worse society considers them compared to the rest of mankind. This life journey you are undertaking is a solitary path. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks or does. The only thing that is important is how you feel about what you are doing.
Your sense of self is one of your life lessons. You do not accept yourself as the magnificent soul that you are. Ask what has prevented you from knowing your worth. You don’t need to know what is going to happen—just do your best and things will work out. Gandhi was small of stature, a peaceful, non-aggressive individual, and he helped to birth a nation.