Connections
Question: Masters, HELP! What is the nature of a karmic bond between myself and my husband? Why is our marriage such hard work for me? Why is my love for him so complex and the attachment so strong? I am a healer; I want to help people; I love helping people. After so many years there is clearly such a conflict between my husband’s expectations of me and my insatiable desire to be out in the world healing people. Please, beloved Masters, I ask for insight, understanding, and your guidance. Despite all my efforts in self-help and self-healing, I often find it hard to reassure my heart. What am I doing wrong? ~Olesya, UK
ANSWER: You and a soul mate—yes, a soul mate, someone from the same group of souls as you—had planned for a very intense lifetime together. There is a conflict between the energy that draws you together, from your closeness in creation, and your contracts for this lifetime, which are forcing you apart.
His desires for this life are about control and ownership. You are one of his possessions. When you do what he wants, you are prized and honored; but when you rebel and try to be your own person, you are the enemy to be re-conquered. Your desires for this lifetime were to find your own strength and recognize the power of freedom of choice. You also are working on finding the talents that have been yours here and in past lives.
Healing has always been a passion of yours. Will you let your husband’s control keep you from it this time around? You thrive in the presence of many people, while he sees that as a threat to his control. Do you wish to live his life desires or your own? Ask yourself what you truly feel about the life you are being forced to live. If you wish to honor yourself, take back the power over you that you have given to your husband and start making your own decisions.
He can continue to rule your life only if you allow it. Make your choice. Decide if you are living his life or your own. Feel what is the right direction for you and then don’t fear taking it. You have given enough time to his wants. His expectations, as you say, are his not yours. Create your own goals and go for them.