Different pathways
QUESTION: Masters, when I was a child and had a lot of free time, I was always reflecting about the life. Through these reflections with brain and heart, I discovered many truths. As the time pass and I have to dedicate more and more time to day-to-day subjects, I feel I’m losing this connection with my soul. I studied a reputed graduation, worked 3 years in industry, but this kind of work is unbearable for me. Now I’m working in my own business, something I believe in. I work very hard to make it succeed (with appropriate breaks), but it’s not working. So I get frustrated because both, material and spiritual life are not evolving. I believe in my capacities, I really believe that I can give a big contribution to increase love and happiness in this world, but what’s going wrong? What am I blocking? How to reverse this situation? ~Robson, Brazil
ANSWER: Your reflections were periods of pure meditation. Know that the time you spend replenishing yourself through meditation does not have to be a large amount of time; you just need to stop the flow of the negative thoughts and actions from the ego world and rebalance in positive loving energy.
The first step is to analyze where you are at the moment. You have made a number of decisions concerning the direction of your journey, so merely keep doing this. Nothing you have done in the past is wrong. Each and every thing was learning what you feel you want to do, and not what others are telling you to do.
Your biggest problem is the urgency to hurry, hurry, hurry. Your expectations do not allow for the learning process to be completed—you want results right now. You are letting the judgment of the ego world determine for you whether you are happy. No one is happy 100% of the time if they are on Earth. The planet has an equal amount of negativity for the great positivity you seek.
You are also never going to be able to increase love and happiness for others if you do not have it for yourself. You are blocking the free flow of energy. You are trying to dictate the way you want things to go instead of stepping into the flow and just letting go. The flow will always take you where you need to go.
You don’t need a huge amount of time to enter your previous reflective states. Shut off the chatter that is the world around you and listen to the silence of the love enveloping you. When negative thoughts or doubts arise, stop them in their tracks and envision the opposite positive effect. Don’t fight your work; see what you can learn from it or how you can change it to accomplish your goal.