Drug addiction as a way of life
QUESTION: Masters, as HIV positive (16 years), and as a relatively ok functioning drug addict with big social issues, I’m afraid I’ll be alone the rest of my life, and that I’ll never get out of this “life.” Can you see anything good coming my way anytime soon! I`m desperate for some answers! ~Karen Deanna, Norway
ANSWER: People like to spend time with those who have the same interests in life as themselves. If you continue in your life as just an ok person, you will never attract other than just ok people into your life. If you continue to exist as an addicted person who spends more time outside reality than trying to deal with reality, you will never know what normal people do in their life.
Unless you decide that you want to and can be a totally functioning being in society, you will always be unable to join in with others. You are at a point where you are starting to ask questions about the future instead of just taking another “hit” and zoning out. This life you have chosen is not carved in stone. You have freedom of choice to go another direction. It is not going to be easy but it is possible.
There are many organizations out there that work with people in your situation. They only want committed individuals. When you are ready to change your way of living so that you may get out of your present life style, seek them out. No one is going to make these decisions for you. It is all up to you. You have been weak and lazy in the past, but all that has just hidden the strength you have inside. Tap into that power and begin a new life with people with whom you can share your dreams.
This can be the beginning of a whole new existence. Nothing is right or wrong in human lifetimes—you just have varying experiences. You know what your life will be like if you continue on as you have been, but anything is possible if you change direction. You do have the choice.