Fighting lessons and expectations
QUESTION: Masters, I’m feeling a roller coaster of emotions, trying to listen to my heart, trying to be correct in my feelings, correct with people, laws, and everything in this world. Sometimes looks like people are testing me all the time. I know I have an anger inside of me that I’m fighting to keep under control, but sometimes I cannot. When I explode the feeling is not good, the pain is instant in my heart but sometimes I cannot stop the train. I’m feeling completely lost, looking for a light, a help from my spirits guides, but I’m awaiting a voice, that I cannot hear, not as a “human voice”. What should I do in order to listen my spirit guides, control this feeling inside me, and how to know if I’m in the right way of 5th dimension with this internal battle inside me? ~Michelly, Brazil
ANSWER: You are trying to serve two masters at once – yourself and society. You do not have to satisfy or please anyone besides yourself. You are not living this life for someone else. Your spiritual self, the part of you that is having this human journey, is the only thing you need to listen to in order to grow toward awareness of self.
The anger that is inside you is one of the lessons you chose to experience in this life. The feelings that come with your explosions are there to let you know that, in order to progress, you must learn why the anger is there and how to deflate it.
You can halt the train by choosing to do so. You have control of your own actions. When you feel yourself getting angry, stop what you are doing and ask yourself why you are getting angry. If you listen, your unconscious will tell you why it is so. Then you have the ability to make the choice to stop holding on to the ideas from which the anger arises.
Your guides are there to help you, but they cannot do the work for you. They will help you with the understanding, but you have to choose to change the way you think about things. A quiet, peaceful disposition is the key to being able to hear your guides. Take the time to do a calm meditation and ask for them to make contact.
Spirits do not always “talk” to those in human form. They may use signals, such as signs or calling your attention to something written. They may even give you a smell or a sound as you ask a question to indicate that you are on the right track. Have patience and keep asking.